Doors between the doors
2011년 11월 7일 월요일
A thin white line on a cold black road
A thin white line on a cold black road
A thousand yellow eyes gleaming in the dark
Losing balance,
Tipping over,
When a firm, strong hand catches me
Your hands
Your warm hands
On an island mounted in the middle of the sea
Black tides of cold fathomless depths
Waves crashing about,
Frozen to my bones ,
When with your firm, strong arms
You embrace me,
You embrace me
In a tower of marble, a spiral glass stairs
Waters flood the halls below
Climbing upward,
And only up,
When the marble crumbles and the glass breaks
I’m set free,
You’ve set me free
2011년 9월 16일 금요일
The worst college essay ever.txt
The truth is my ancestors are a part of the legacy that dates as far back as the beginning of time. In my veins flows the royal blood of heroes and kings that had reigned over empires, founded nations, and created history. Our race, with our superior mental acuity and physical strength, has come to this planet to enlighten the lesser beings of culture, technology and morality. David, Alexander the Great, King Arthur, Isaac Newton, Napoleon, Albert Einstein, you name it. Their great achievements were only possible due to the great ability of our kind. Each of us, with our unique abilities has engraved everlasting marks in history, and entire chapters of history books are dedicated to celebrate their achievements.
However, with great power comes great responsibility, which Adolf Hitler failed to recognize. He brought sadness and suffering to the world with his rash and drastic actions, and I, along with my fellow leaders of the allies, had to come to a heart-breaking decision that he had to be stopped at all costs.
After the case of Hitler, we have exiled ourselves from the eyes of society and retreated to the shadows. However, as of recent years I see signs of a great danger that may soon bring mankind to its destruction.
We have already formulated multiple plans to stop this event from coming to pass, but we require your assistance as well. It is imperative that I get admitted to Harvard; the resources and possible relations that may formulate during my years there will become very useful when I save the world from destruction. So, I plead you, for the survival of your kin, select me as your adequate candidate to be admitted to your school.
P.S. A financial aid wouldn't go amiss as well.
2011년 9월 5일 월요일
Chocolate Cake
Tinkle.
The gentle sound of a bronze chime announced the arrival of a customer. I looked up, trying to put up a smile, although, it being close to closing time, I was secretly wishing for whoever it was to turn around and get out through the very doors he had entered.
When I saw the face of the person who had entered, I froze.
It was me.
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I took the plate holding 2000kcal worth of chocolate cake and a cup of warm milk that he had (or should I say that I had) ordered and laid it down on his table. With a gleeful look in his eyes, he dug in without hesitation, devouring within seconds what had previously been an elegant masterpiece of chocolate and cream. I wasn’t quite sure how this 5-year-old looking me was going to pay for all this, but I pushed the thought to the back of my mind. There was a more pressing matter at hand. Why did he come here? Was he looking for me? More importantly, HOW ON EARTH WAS I TALKING TO MY YOUNGER SELF?
But before I could make sense out of this incomprehensible situation, he, having finished the cup of milk as well, opened his mouth.
“Is there anything you want to say to me?”
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The coffee shop was closed, but I wasn’t alone.
The boy sat in the seat across the table, humming to himself absent-mindedly. The tune had almost a nostalgic feeling to it.
“Stop trying so hard.”
Breaking the awkward silence, I blurted out what I had been on my mind all these years.
““I’m telling you, it’s not worth it. You’re just going to raise your parents’ expectations and your brother’s going to have a pretty shitty time, thanks to you.”
The bitter complaints did not seem to have any effect on the little boy. He was still looking up at me with those black eyes glinting with the signs of innocence that I had lost many years ago. Maybe he was too young to properly register the implications of my words.
My heart started to beat faster. I felt the blood creeping up my neck. Something about the naïve, happy expression on his face was getting on my nerves.
“Not to mention, you’re going to get really, really unhealthy, sitting on your ass studying for all day long with no friends, then you’re going to get a manic depression with an eating disorder starving yourself until you pass out.”
I was positively shouting by now.
“Worst of all, you’re going to fail. You’re a loser. You’re not going to win the Nobel Prize; you’re not going to get into MIT. Spare yourself of troubles and quit it now, quick and painless.”
The room fell silent again.
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“Well then,” said the boy rising from his seat, “I guess that’s about all that I needed to know.”
He had a steely tone in his voice, an air of indifference that was grotesquely jarring with his figure of a 5-year-old. I was confused. This wasn’t the kind of reaction that I had been expecting.
“What…?”
“I said, I guess that’s about all that I needed to know. I was going to ask you a few more things, but now I see that it would be pointless to ask a pitiful loser like you for advice on practically anything.”
I was astonished more than anything. Had I been that arrogant, rude, obnoxious son-of-a-bitch in my youth?
“You’re so afraid of failing that you won’t even try? Even a kid like me can tell that that’s the worst failure of all. You also work at this beautiful café, but you’re still too sore from failing as whatever you had been that you don’t even realize that this was actually one of the things that you’ve always wanted to do. So don’t worry about becoming a failure, you are one already even without trying.”
I was dumbstruck. Each of his words jabbed painfully at my heart.
“Thanks for the cake by the way, it was delicious.”
With another gentle tinkle of the bell, he walked out through the door.
2011년 6월 14일 화요일
Coffee Shop Retirement
“Aw, man, I’m so tired.”
That’s what Jake would say every single day. He was possibly the most exhausted person on earth. Dark shades around the eyes, slightly hunched shoulders, and greasy dark hair screamed TIRED all day long. Judy couldn’t imagine what kind of work he had to do to be so tired all the time. Just standing beside him made her feel better about herself, since standing next to him for 5 seconds was enough to make anyone feel as if they were the luckiest and happiest person on earth.
“What’s wrong? Work again?” Judy asked, out of politeness rather than anything.
Jake let out an exhausted sigh. He looked as if holding his head up straight was costing him more energy than he could muster.
“No, not exactly… although come to think of it, I think I might be better off jumping off a roof now than having to do all those stuff,” said Jake, looking out the window almost wistfully.
Judy had already heard him say this many times before, so she wasn’t too worried. However, she couldn’t help but feel disturbed at such thought and changed the subject.
“Jake, did you know that Professor Knowels is retiring this year?”
“No,” he said, taken aback, “but I thought she was only 50-something right now. A bit early to retire, isn’t she?”
“Yeah, I know!” exclaimed Judy. She was excited to tell her story now that Jake was displaying obvious interest. “They say that it’s because of her mother. It sounds like she has a heart condition.”
“That’s a shame. She was a really great teacher,” said Jake.
“The thing is,” Judy added, toning her voice down mysteriously, “I know for a fact that her mother and father already died of car crash like decades ago. I saw that while I was researching in the library for my term paper. What a lame excuse, ‘my mother is sick.’ It’s almost as bad as ‘my dog ate my homework’!
“I think there’s a lot more to this; you know, people covering up stories for the school name and so. She might have got herself addicted to drugs, got broke gambling, got into a freak accident…”
Judy had always felt threatened by Mrs. Knowels. Even though Mrs. Knowels was in her 40s, she was rather popular among the boys and Judy knew there had to be something wrong with her.
“Or,” said Judy, with a sudden inspiration, “she might have eloped with a student!”
Jake snorted into his coffee.
“Wha- what are you talking about?”
Sputtering, Jake struggled for words.
Judy grinned mischievously.
“Jake, don’t say you didn’t know! It was all over the school! Mrs. Knowels had this mysterious “secret admirer” thing going on but then it suddenly stopped. People were saying that it was because she said yes to whomever it was and –“
Jake suddenly stood up. The weariness had been wiped from his face and instead, Judy could sense a cold anger burning behind his eyes.
“I think I left something behind at the library.”
Judy stared.
“I’ll see you around, Judy, thanks for the coffee.”
It was nothing like the usual drawling, weary voice she was used to hearing from Jake. It was cold, brisk, and rather emotionless. Judy couldn’t think of anything that she said that may have offended him.
Jake stormed out of the coffee shop. His eyes were starting to water.
That’s what Jake would say every single day. He was possibly the most exhausted person on earth. Dark shades around the eyes, slightly hunched shoulders, and greasy dark hair screamed TIRED all day long. Judy couldn’t imagine what kind of work he had to do to be so tired all the time. Just standing beside him made her feel better about herself, since standing next to him for 5 seconds was enough to make anyone feel as if they were the luckiest and happiest person on earth.
“What’s wrong? Work again?” Judy asked, out of politeness rather than anything.
Jake let out an exhausted sigh. He looked as if holding his head up straight was costing him more energy than he could muster.
“No, not exactly… although come to think of it, I think I might be better off jumping off a roof now than having to do all those stuff,” said Jake, looking out the window almost wistfully.
Judy had already heard him say this many times before, so she wasn’t too worried. However, she couldn’t help but feel disturbed at such thought and changed the subject.
“Jake, did you know that Professor Knowels is retiring this year?”
“No,” he said, taken aback, “but I thought she was only 50-something right now. A bit early to retire, isn’t she?”
“Yeah, I know!” exclaimed Judy. She was excited to tell her story now that Jake was displaying obvious interest. “They say that it’s because of her mother. It sounds like she has a heart condition.”
“That’s a shame. She was a really great teacher,” said Jake.
“The thing is,” Judy added, toning her voice down mysteriously, “I know for a fact that her mother and father already died of car crash like decades ago. I saw that while I was researching in the library for my term paper. What a lame excuse, ‘my mother is sick.’ It’s almost as bad as ‘my dog ate my homework’!
“I think there’s a lot more to this; you know, people covering up stories for the school name and so. She might have got herself addicted to drugs, got broke gambling, got into a freak accident…”
Judy had always felt threatened by Mrs. Knowels. Even though Mrs. Knowels was in her 40s, she was rather popular among the boys and Judy knew there had to be something wrong with her.
“Or,” said Judy, with a sudden inspiration, “she might have eloped with a student!”
Jake snorted into his coffee.
“Wha- what are you talking about?”
Sputtering, Jake struggled for words.
Judy grinned mischievously.
“Jake, don’t say you didn’t know! It was all over the school! Mrs. Knowels had this mysterious “secret admirer” thing going on but then it suddenly stopped. People were saying that it was because she said yes to whomever it was and –“
Jake suddenly stood up. The weariness had been wiped from his face and instead, Judy could sense a cold anger burning behind his eyes.
“I think I left something behind at the library.”
Judy stared.
“I’ll see you around, Judy, thanks for the coffee.”
It was nothing like the usual drawling, weary voice she was used to hearing from Jake. It was cold, brisk, and rather emotionless. Judy couldn’t think of anything that she said that may have offended him.
Jake stormed out of the coffee shop. His eyes were starting to water.
2011년 6월 6일 월요일
Satan and Snakes (Part 1)
The cold winter air cut through Dr. Greyson’s cheeks. Trying to cover as much of his exposed face as he could with his coat, he walked towards the police station with hurried steps.
As he passed through the glass doors, the guard greeted him.
“Good morning, Dr. Greyson.”
Dr. Greyson answered with a halfhearted smile. His visits to this place were always depressing. Everything about this building got on his nerve: the dusty red bricks, the dirty windows, the black metal bars distraught him and the fact that he was visiting either a psychopath or a psychotic did nothing to improve his mood.
Dr. Richard Greyson worked as a psychology consultant for the Department of Justice. To put simply, he was in charge of investigating the mental well-being of a convicted felon so that he or she may be put under trial or admitted to a mental facility accordingly. This was a gruesome task; why an average person like him worked as a consultant was a mystery to many of his colleagues. He was not the kind of person who thrilled at the pleasure of analyzing a criminal, nor was he an avid advocator of justice who wished to uphold the law with his own hands. One might take him for an accountant or a banker, but never a psychologist. Trying not to be intrusive, however, no one actually asked him; he must have his reasons, no doubt. And if he was good at spotting out frauds, who cared why he worked as a consultant?
Dr. Greyson took out the ID tag from his bag and hung it around his neck. He shuffled along the corridor which leads to the holding cells, flashing his ID at securities. Some of the guards were dozing in their posts; other men were busy munching down a frosted doughnut while reading a newspaper. Only one officer seemed to notice that he was passing by.
“Hey, Rick. Up for another round of foosball?”
It was Lauren from homicides. She and he had worked together on a case previously, and ever since then, she seemed to have taken a liking for him. They had gone out several times already, but their relationship never got past the point of beer, foosball, and bed.
Dr. Greyson couldn’t think of anything to say, so he could only reply by smiling awkwardly to her proposal.
“Friday, 7:00, at Tony’s! Don’t be late!” Lauren shouted across the hall. Some of the guards looked up, snickering.
With a reluctant sigh, feeling his energy drain away already, he opened the door of the holding cell number 6.
There, he saw the face of an angel.
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As he lied awake on the bed beside Lauren, looking up to the ceiling, Dr. Greyson could not help but wonder if there was such a thing as a supernatural being in this world. How else could one explain the existence of something so beautiful yet so deformed, unless it was the product of his irony? He could feel his destiny calling out to him, beckoning him to purify and heal this tainted and scarred soul. He voiced out a silent prayer, thanking his good fortune.
“Anna Skatesands,”
He mouthed the name of his true love.
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The girl sitting in the chair wore an orange convict suit. She seemed to be no older than 16. Dr. Greyson was lost for words. Her short black hair fell elegantly on her left cheek. Her sharp eyebrows accentuated her clear blue eyes. Her scarlet lips contrasting with her pale complexion made the perfect portrait. His heart seemed to skip a beat; his eyes seemed to water from staring at something so perfect and beautiful.
Feeling the blood in his body thumping, Dr. Greyson, with difficulty, tore his eyes away from the girl. He read the file in his hands.
“Anna Skatesands?” he asked.
She nodded in affirmation. Trying not to notice how the light seemed to bounce off her hair, he took on a professional voice with a slight cough and said,
“It says here that you…”
But he could not finish his sentence. He could not connect the girl in front of him with the heinous crime that was written in the case file. In the case file, it said that the girl with the porcelain features, the girl with the beautiful blue eyes had been convicted with murder.
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Anna stared down at her bloodstained knife. She frowned. She had expected to feel something. After all, she had just stabbed a person in the chest, right between the left 3rd and 4th rib, tearing through the pectoral muscles, and into the lung. Her victim was drowning in his own blood, gurgling out incoherent words while entering the first stage of hemorrhagic shock. He would die painfully and slowly, unable to move or even call for help within the hour. It was more than enough for her to discard the weapon and all evidence that could connect her to the crime and flee the scene to build a solid alibi. Since this man had no friends or family, it would take at least 2 days until his body started to stench for anyone to notice his absence.
She calmly wrapped up the knife with toilet paper and placed it in a plastic bag. Taking care not to step on the pool of blood forming on the carpet, she left the building.
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Dr. Greyson had never seen a case like this. She seemed to be perfectly healthy and mentally stable. He couldn’t detect any anomaly in her behavior except for her lack of guilt for what she had done. Even gang members had displayed more guilt than this 16 year old girl had. If anything could be said about her mental state, she was healthier than other modern day citizens of New York, where the majority suffered from depression, insecurity and solitude.
“So what do you think? She a nutcase, or a criminal?”
She was mentally in perfect condition. There was no doubt about that.
“Definitely a psychological disorder. I’ll take her off your hands.”
Dr. Greyson smiled reassuringly.
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As he passed through the glass doors, the guard greeted him.
“Good morning, Dr. Greyson.”
Dr. Greyson answered with a halfhearted smile. His visits to this place were always depressing. Everything about this building got on his nerve: the dusty red bricks, the dirty windows, the black metal bars distraught him and the fact that he was visiting either a psychopath or a psychotic did nothing to improve his mood.
Dr. Richard Greyson worked as a psychology consultant for the Department of Justice. To put simply, he was in charge of investigating the mental well-being of a convicted felon so that he or she may be put under trial or admitted to a mental facility accordingly. This was a gruesome task; why an average person like him worked as a consultant was a mystery to many of his colleagues. He was not the kind of person who thrilled at the pleasure of analyzing a criminal, nor was he an avid advocator of justice who wished to uphold the law with his own hands. One might take him for an accountant or a banker, but never a psychologist. Trying not to be intrusive, however, no one actually asked him; he must have his reasons, no doubt. And if he was good at spotting out frauds, who cared why he worked as a consultant?
Dr. Greyson took out the ID tag from his bag and hung it around his neck. He shuffled along the corridor which leads to the holding cells, flashing his ID at securities. Some of the guards were dozing in their posts; other men were busy munching down a frosted doughnut while reading a newspaper. Only one officer seemed to notice that he was passing by.
“Hey, Rick. Up for another round of foosball?”
It was Lauren from homicides. She and he had worked together on a case previously, and ever since then, she seemed to have taken a liking for him. They had gone out several times already, but their relationship never got past the point of beer, foosball, and bed.
Dr. Greyson couldn’t think of anything to say, so he could only reply by smiling awkwardly to her proposal.
“Friday, 7:00, at Tony’s! Don’t be late!” Lauren shouted across the hall. Some of the guards looked up, snickering.
With a reluctant sigh, feeling his energy drain away already, he opened the door of the holding cell number 6.
There, he saw the face of an angel.
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As he lied awake on the bed beside Lauren, looking up to the ceiling, Dr. Greyson could not help but wonder if there was such a thing as a supernatural being in this world. How else could one explain the existence of something so beautiful yet so deformed, unless it was the product of his irony? He could feel his destiny calling out to him, beckoning him to purify and heal this tainted and scarred soul. He voiced out a silent prayer, thanking his good fortune.
“Anna Skatesands,”
He mouthed the name of his true love.
--------------------------------------------------
The girl sitting in the chair wore an orange convict suit. She seemed to be no older than 16. Dr. Greyson was lost for words. Her short black hair fell elegantly on her left cheek. Her sharp eyebrows accentuated her clear blue eyes. Her scarlet lips contrasting with her pale complexion made the perfect portrait. His heart seemed to skip a beat; his eyes seemed to water from staring at something so perfect and beautiful.
Feeling the blood in his body thumping, Dr. Greyson, with difficulty, tore his eyes away from the girl. He read the file in his hands.
“Anna Skatesands?” he asked.
She nodded in affirmation. Trying not to notice how the light seemed to bounce off her hair, he took on a professional voice with a slight cough and said,
“It says here that you…”
But he could not finish his sentence. He could not connect the girl in front of him with the heinous crime that was written in the case file. In the case file, it said that the girl with the porcelain features, the girl with the beautiful blue eyes had been convicted with murder.
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Anna stared down at her bloodstained knife. She frowned. She had expected to feel something. After all, she had just stabbed a person in the chest, right between the left 3rd and 4th rib, tearing through the pectoral muscles, and into the lung. Her victim was drowning in his own blood, gurgling out incoherent words while entering the first stage of hemorrhagic shock. He would die painfully and slowly, unable to move or even call for help within the hour. It was more than enough for her to discard the weapon and all evidence that could connect her to the crime and flee the scene to build a solid alibi. Since this man had no friends or family, it would take at least 2 days until his body started to stench for anyone to notice his absence.
She calmly wrapped up the knife with toilet paper and placed it in a plastic bag. Taking care not to step on the pool of blood forming on the carpet, she left the building.
--------------------------------------------------
Dr. Greyson had never seen a case like this. She seemed to be perfectly healthy and mentally stable. He couldn’t detect any anomaly in her behavior except for her lack of guilt for what she had done. Even gang members had displayed more guilt than this 16 year old girl had. If anything could be said about her mental state, she was healthier than other modern day citizens of New York, where the majority suffered from depression, insecurity and solitude.
“So what do you think? She a nutcase, or a criminal?”
She was mentally in perfect condition. There was no doubt about that.
“Definitely a psychological disorder. I’ll take her off your hands.”
Dr. Greyson smiled reassuringly.
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2011년 4월 5일 화요일
Something Beautiful
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for my daughter and me.
I would shield her tiny toes,
From all the tears and woes,
For more delicate than flowers is she.
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for my son and me.
Like pups he’ll be running,
In summer or winter snowing,
But warm and soft his feet will be.
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for you and me.
For time may tear us apart,
Fade memories from our hearts.
And into the trash I’ll go,
With a tattered hole in my toe,
But your footprint forever I’ll have,
Something I’ll take to my grave.
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for you and me.
A shoe for my daughter and me.
I would shield her tiny toes,
From all the tears and woes,
For more delicate than flowers is she.
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for my son and me.
Like pups he’ll be running,
In summer or winter snowing,
But warm and soft his feet will be.
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for you and me.
For time may tear us apart,
Fade memories from our hearts.
And into the trash I’ll go,
With a tattered hole in my toe,
But your footprint forever I’ll have,
Something I’ll take to my grave.
I would be more than happy to be,
A shoe for you and me.
2011년 3월 22일 화요일
Character Bio
Name: Claire
Age: 16
Appearance: Blond, Beautiful, Slim
Personality: introverted
Problem: Got no friend
Environment: Lives in a dorm
Special quality: Knows Karate
Claire was a quiet girl, who liked to read books. Every day, she would be immersed in a book, sitting in her seat by the window. She wasn’t exactly an outgoing type of person; more than half of her class had never spoken to her. Nobody had heard her speak, unless it was absolutely necessary. Even when a teacher asked her a question, she would bow her head down and whisper a hardly audible “I don’t know, sir,” blushing furiously.
She wasn’t exactly a kind of person that leaves an impression on you. And as a matter of fact, I wouldn’t have even remembered her at all if it weren’t for her stunningly blond hair, almond shaped eyes, delicate nose, and her long and elegant limbs. Even though she never wore any make up and usually kept herb long hair down covering more than half of her face, her aesthetic qualities seemed to shine through. She was the center of the attention wherever she went, turning heads as she walked to her classes.
Although we boys worshipped her like an idol, the girls seemed to have a different opinion about her. They would always find something mean to say to her whether it was true or false, and jeer and make snide comments at Claire as she passed by. Everyone knew for a fact that she had never committed or was even capable of doing any of the actions that she was accused of, but out of jealousy and spite, the rumors spread through the schools like wildfire, finally causing Claire to burst into tears.
After that unfortunate incident, Claire dropped out of school. Nobody knew where she went. Some said that she ran away with a married man who was more than twice her age, and some said that she had hooked up with a very rich businessman and was living in Dubai on a private island. So it came as quite a shock when I saw her on the local TV news under the headline: “Beautiful bank clerk singlehandedly takes down four armed professional bank robbers with her deadly karate chop”
Age: 16
Appearance: Blond, Beautiful, Slim
Personality: introverted
Problem: Got no friend
Environment: Lives in a dorm
Special quality: Knows Karate
Claire was a quiet girl, who liked to read books. Every day, she would be immersed in a book, sitting in her seat by the window. She wasn’t exactly an outgoing type of person; more than half of her class had never spoken to her. Nobody had heard her speak, unless it was absolutely necessary. Even when a teacher asked her a question, she would bow her head down and whisper a hardly audible “I don’t know, sir,” blushing furiously.
She wasn’t exactly a kind of person that leaves an impression on you. And as a matter of fact, I wouldn’t have even remembered her at all if it weren’t for her stunningly blond hair, almond shaped eyes, delicate nose, and her long and elegant limbs. Even though she never wore any make up and usually kept herb long hair down covering more than half of her face, her aesthetic qualities seemed to shine through. She was the center of the attention wherever she went, turning heads as she walked to her classes.
Although we boys worshipped her like an idol, the girls seemed to have a different opinion about her. They would always find something mean to say to her whether it was true or false, and jeer and make snide comments at Claire as she passed by. Everyone knew for a fact that she had never committed or was even capable of doing any of the actions that she was accused of, but out of jealousy and spite, the rumors spread through the schools like wildfire, finally causing Claire to burst into tears.
After that unfortunate incident, Claire dropped out of school. Nobody knew where she went. Some said that she ran away with a married man who was more than twice her age, and some said that she had hooked up with a very rich businessman and was living in Dubai on a private island. So it came as quite a shock when I saw her on the local TV news under the headline: “Beautiful bank clerk singlehandedly takes down four armed professional bank robbers with her deadly karate chop”
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